Week Two

First of all I have to thank you, lovely reader, for making this blog such a success over such a short space of time. The stats are looking fantastic and somehow I even managed to get featured on 20 Something Bloggers’ weekly round-up. Now I feel great pressure to make this something worth reading rather than a nonsensical soliloquy like usual.
Right now I am feeling weirdly positive, despite the fact the past week has largely been dreadful. I looked through page after page of vacancies and came to the conclusion I do not have the skills for any of them. I don’t think my self-esteem has ever dipped so low, lower than I even thought it was possible to go. It was the feeling that I quite literally couldn’t do anything, the feeling of complete worthlessness.
It is weird though how the world sometimes tries to balance things out for you. This week a barrage of unexpected compliments fell my way as if the world was trying to tell me that I am not as worthless as I thought. I’m a complete atheist but sometimes it does feel like a superior being is looking out for me.
No matter what I was feeling I knew I had to get on with something productive so I started writing a CV (or ‘resume’ as Americans call it, although both names are equally ridiculous). Writing my personal details and my education history were easy and since I’ve always been in full time education and never had a full time job employment history didn’t take too long either. It then came to the point where I had to think about what skills I could bring to a potential employer and that didn’t go so well:
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Fortunately it turns out there is a superior being in my life looking after me and she is my Mother. There have been many conversations about what I am to do, none of them ever initiated by me, and this one ended with me having a list of skills and a list of jobs I should apply for. She also informed me I really need to start driving lessons again so I can get my license- this was an unpleasant realisation I had already come to but perhaps there will be more on that in a future post.
So over the last few days I have applied for three different jobs. One of them I mentioned last week, a writer on a magazine about animals which would be amazing. Perhaps even more amazing would be writing for a science-fiction magazine, which is another I applied for. Writing about science-fiction for a living would be a job I would adore. Both magazines come from the same publisher so I guess the chances between them are similar. I would really love to do either but the big problem is my lack of published writing experience. Still, I know I am a pretty skilled writer and there has to be a chance they will consider me.
The other job follows my academic career a bit more and involves investigating and addressing children who have low attendance to schools in the local area. It is something I feel I could probably do and whilst it might be pretty challenging I think it would be fulfilling too. Again experience is the big issue here- although I’ve got experience of the education world this is very specific and not something I have done before. Again though it is worth applying because it could just turn out I am exactly the person they are looking for.
There are no doubt plenty more jobs out there waiting for me to apply to. I at least feel a bit more positive about the future now. The job search might last a long time but at least it feels like I have got going. I really need to start my next mission, which is to make a life for myself outside of work…
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